Frustrations are always there.

And due to my frustrations and negative emotions, once again, I have lost a lot of things.
I'm just like a firefighter keeps putting off raging fires but there are times that I've failed to save the innocents.
It hurts me a lil bit more when I thought of my recent failures.

At the same time I have to keep reminding myself to stay strong as there is a major task awaiting for me to rescue it from falling off the cliff.
I felt, burdened.
I don't know how to express them all properly.
I felt that, it's pointless to share bout my feelings anymore since everything is up to me, myself and I.

Instead of saying me emo right now, I'd say that I've back to the origin which I have to rebuild everything again.
Struggling to climb over the wall and reach the point where everything is calm and peace.
I do admit that I'm afraid of failures on things that I really care of.
Coz truth is I always plan for the best, not the worse.
I told myself that even if there is worse, just face it.
But how to face it, I don't know.
Subconscious telling me that worse varies from time to time.
No precise solution is available.

Final testing on tomorrow.
Of course I do hope for the best and at the same time, pray that God will bless everything so that things would go on smoothly.
Truth is these days He never leave me.
He knew that I'm weak, so He strengthen me in this short while and makes everything better right now.
Thank God. :)

God bless y'all.
And never give up on fighting. If you're weak just like me, do ask the strength from God. :)

Aiks.

Stay strong Sharon Goh.
Stay strong!
You can do it!!!!!

God bless me! x)

Hello World

Pretty sure that my very very very first line of programming code is include stdio.h; and first printed line on screen by programming code is printf("Hello World"); in C language. Haha. Lame enough. :P
After a long time (since after internship) I've stopped touching on codes and decided not to look at them since I wanted to focus on studies (only subject on previous sem that is programming related was AI which is in Prolog, consider as non-programming language) but who knows I've failed for both sides. Haha.
Spent a whole night fixing bugs and finding best method to present my UI.
Trust me, this is just a small lil part of my project.
The largest bug is the network connection. Spent the entire day just to fix the connection and yet it's still not working at all. Mad disappointed and weak.

Frankly speaking, I have really no idea why I came up with such an idea which is building a real subsystem.
Gosh, everyone is only making an application yet I've made myself to complete an app+network+backend system. Crazy enough? o.O
Seriously, pray hard that our hardwork would payoff.
Otherwise I don't think I'm able to face the cruelty optimistically. This is wayyyyyyy worse than failing exam papers. =X

Till here I shall stop. :)
Gota work on my incomplete application.
Android, please love me more kay. ;)
Thanks God for helping me so much throughout these days btw.
Please continue blessing me and my love ones, as well as blessing those who are struggling out there rite now.

God will bless u if you ask. ;)
Tatas.

Give them back to me.

My smiles are mine.
They don't belong to anyone.
Stop grabbing them away from me.

Departure.

I used to be kinda sentimental while comes to departure thingy.
If I adore the person very much, I won't bear to see him/her leaving my side like that.

So today the best home helper has left the home and back to her real home, to take care of her grandchild.
Lastnite couldn't sleep well because I guess I'm gona miss her pretty much, not because she's good in keeping the house but she's a very, very nice person as well.
But then, she has agreed to come back if she has settled her stuff back in Indon.
So yeap. Pray to God that she'll be back to help out this family and of course, pray that they would appreciate her more than ever. :)

Didn't send her off to airport this morning.
Coz I just don't wana being emotional infront of everyone. Haha.
Anywayssssss! Still the same old quote from me - God bless her and all the best to her and her family. :))

Depart is for us to meet up again. :)

- Sharon Goh '12

Shall see her again. :))
God bless y'all and my family and my loves. <3

!@#$%^&*(()

I was wrong.
Absolutely wrong.
CREATING UI FOR ANDROID CAN NEVER BE EASY!!
Gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh total sien-ness! =_=

Started to appreciate what we had for ASP.NET. Sadness. >.<

Pointless.

No one shall control my life and I shall control no one's life.
Nuff said, this is it.

MIA from Facebook and in case anyone wana contact me, get me thro other channel.
Sorry for any inconvenience caused.

God bless me.

Growing up.

From aggressive, to controlled.
From naive, to realistic.
From stubborn, to understanding.

Who else would know that I've grown up.
Just a blink of eye and here I am, graduating with Bachelor soon.
I'm stepping out to the society faster and earlier than most of the youngsters that are around my age.

Kept asking myself, why things are no longer the same anymore.
And just realized, because I'm walking too fast, that's why I've made felas around me to feel tired.
What to do, fact is if you wana be with me, you have to keep up your pace with me.

Once I've made up my mind, nothing can change it.
Not you, not him, not her.

Back to FYP now.
God bless me and my love ones.